If you somehow haven’t heard, November is National Novel Writing Month — NaNoWriMo. I did it last year and enjoyed it, plus i got 50,000 words of my novel written, so I ‘won’!
The problem is, I have changed so much since last November, that I no longer believe much of what i wrote then. I was trying to salvage my faith, and make it something worthwhile in my writing, and now I’ve left the faith. That’ll make a different story.
When I try to edit, I feel like I’m editing someone else’s (crappy) novel.
So I had decided to completely rewrite the book this month, but I feel so uninspired. I didn’t prep properly, and I just don’t have a book inside me trying to get out.
Of course, I could fight to write down more crap just to win NaNoWriMo again, but I’d prefer to take my time writing things I actually care about.
Also, when i tried to write i just sort of froze up and panicked.
So I quit NaNoWriMo after getting about six words down on paper.
I’m just not ready to be a novelist. Right now I like blogging.
My family always said ‘(our last name)s are NOT QUITTERS’. I spent a summer when i was young attempting to learn tennis because we were not quitters. I had no talent, and the instructor regularly made fun of me. I hated it. but by golly I would not quit.
But I’ve learned that sometimes quitting is best. Better than wasting time on something you hate that has no real benefit, and that might suck up your mental health.
So while i think there is benefit in setting a goal and scrambling to meet it, there’s also benefit in giving up goals when that’s healthiest for you.
What about you, are you doing NaNoWriMo? Have you ever given up a goal for your own good?